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Happy October!!!

October is by far my favorite month out of the year and not because I was born this month either! (though my birthday is 21st to those of you who care!) Though Autumn usually starts in late September, it doesn't typically cool off here in Georgie until October. October rushes in Autumn in full force, and Halloween to some, Samhain to me. Though I do like to indulge in the festivities of Halloween too! October brings the season of change. The season of rich warm colors, spectacular foods and fun for all. I love Fall! It's a very special time of the year to me. I just LOVE the cooler weather.

As if by some magic the weather started to cool off this year a few days before today. I'm sure we'll still have hot days. This is HOTlanta after all. The weather never makes sense here. Sometimes we have warm days even into December which is RUBBISH if you ask me but thats the south for ya.

Only one of MANY reasons why I dream of Massachusetts. Salem specifically. I went to Boston once as a child. I must have been 11 or 12 and it was for my cousin Russell's school trip but my Nana got special permission for me to go. At the time I was living with my other grandmother whom I call Mimi (as my Mother is deceased and my Father has been in prison since I was only 5 months old) and she insisted on me not going because I was soooo very sick with the flu. I was obviously more persistent though and in the end wound up on a plane well on my way to Boston, Mass.

I don't remember the plain ride there, I vaguely remember the airport it's self. I don't remember the trip back or the Boston airport. I DO remember loading up on the bus and how horribly the driver drove but DON'T remember arriving at the hotel, what it looked like, staying there, how the food was or anything. That's how sick I was. I was weighed down with horrible fever and nausea the entire trip. Fun. Right?

I remember a touch of the market, eating at some restaurant, buying two hand-blown perfume bottles, and going to the top of a building so tall it swayed. I immediately wanted to go back down.  We went to see "Plymouth Rock" and a life sized model of the Mayflower.

But my hazy, fevered, memory is most vivid when I think of Salem. The streets and the shops and the Witch Museum. The beautifully Historic houses. We spent a lot of time there just walking around and looking and I knew I could have spent the entire trip there. Whats in Boston? What's so important there? Salem was where the beauty was. The magic! And I loved every second of it.

Brandon (my boyfriend and more recently the Father of my unborn child. lol.) and I have been talking and planning a trip to go this December or April buuuuuut with the confirmation of my pregnancy we may not have the funds to take the trip just yet and April will be too far a long in the pregnancy which is a real bummer because I was so excited to go. Maybe by next Fall though we will be able to make the trip. Wouldn't it be neat if Baby's first Halloween was in Salem? That would make me one happy Mom! Maybe funds will be good and we will be able to go in December though. Who knows!?

What's most important on my plate right now is finding a place to live. I can't live with my Nana and Pop because my horrible cousin from hell - Russell - still lives there. He's supposedly mental/bipolar but really he's just a drug addict. (just to note, I'm not dissing all people who have bipolar disorder, my best friend has it. I'm just say that Russell does not have it, he's just a fucking loser.) He randomly throws fits when they don't give him money for drugs and has even at times threatened to kill my Nana and once with a gun. I called the cops needless to say but that didn't really do anything. He smokes in the house and does drugs. He puts a chair under the door at night because he insists that he owes people money and they're gonna come for him and a chair will some how stop them. So the point being, they're not going to kick him out, they are going to continue to pamper and enable a 21 year old who has never had a job or even gotten his driver's license because they "feel sorry" for him. I can't stay there.

I can't stay with my boyfriend right now either. Well, I'm staying there now but it's obviously only temporary. She doesn't know I'm pregnant yet and she's the one who we're most worried about telling since she has a tendency to overreact and is extremely dramatic. She once threatened to throw Brandon out for not changing the kitty litter. The fucking kitty litter. Too much stress for Momma and for Baby. Also, I doubt that she'd allow me to bring two large male rats, a cat, and a ferret along for the ride. I have to have my pets. :(

Now, I don't want you all thinking that my boyfriend is a loser who, at 22, still lives with his Mom and can't afford to support me. Until recently he's been a full time student and didn't have a job because his mom would help him with food and stuff and he lived here because he was a student and that's just cheaper. lol. The pregnancy, like I said before, was very unexpected. So now I'm hoping to get a Holiday promotion and Brandon's rushing around trying to find a job period. He actually had an interview this morning before I had to go to the Medicaid office. Since the owner of the business is one of his best friend's Mom, and she's been telling him that he'll be hired, he's pretty sure. He'll be making minimum wage but working full time, so that's a start. The other setback however, is that the place is not opened yet. It's a doggy daycare by the name of The Paw Pad and it's still a bit unfinished, though hopefully it'll be up and running within the next month. We need the money! It also offers grooming training (for people!) and obedience training for dogs. It's a really nice place, so look around the site some.

Now back to the point. His Nanna (just to note, we both have Nanas. lol.) already knows about my pregnancy and has said we can stay there, however bringing my pets is also an issue along with the fact that it's a good distance from my job and I don't have a car.

And that's the next big thing... I DO have a car but it is unreliable and well on it's way out the door. I need a new one badly but totally can't afford it with my current income from Hot Topic. I can barely afford my current bills and paying off my debt. So until I get a raise and/or a second job I'm pretty much fucked.

Things look pretty gloom and doom right now, I know, but I have faith that we can figure this out. I guess some people would view my circumstances as unfortunate, but I like to see them as just unexpected. :D

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